Back to Me

I’ve been very lax in blogging and doing pretty much anything creative lately, and it’s having a toll on my mood. I’ve been struggling with depression and have found that I’m easily irritated and frustrated.

However, I managed to find some downtime yesterday and instead of working on the laundry, I started designing a phone case for my new phone (thank you tax rebate), and the longer I worked on it, the more I felt myself unwind.

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The boys are becoming more independent, we’re weaning J3 from breastfeeding so Josh is taking him off of my hands, and they’re more consistent with their naps, which is giving me more Time (yes, Time with a capital T). Recently I’ve been using it to do chores, but Josh is encouraging me to just leave them, and to work on stuff for myself.

So, today during naptime, I picked up the Surface, and with my new stylus in hand (thank you My Valentine) I got to work. This means that I’ve finally put some new designs on our Threadless store!

Go check it out and leave a comment if y’all want a custom design, or just have a cool idea for one!

I would also love to hear your strategies for coping with depression.

Until next time,

Laura x

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J2 just ‘shushed’ me!

It’s 1:20am, he gets out of bed, comes into our room and snuggles up with me. I notice that his diaper is a bit full so, better safe than sorry, I take him to change it before putting him back into bed. 

He fell asleep as soon as I put him on the change mat, but woke up again when that cold wipe went to work!

I carried him back to his room, put him in bed, pulled up his duvet, kissed him on the cheek, whispered goodnight and he put his hand on my head, pushed me away and said,

“Shhhhhh”

Little toot. 

Until next time,

Laura x

“Blessed” Expanded

We got home from PAX, then everyone got sick. Super Bowl Sunday was not the peak of the germ mountain, that didn’t come until Wednesday.

Literal side note:
Lady Gaga was amazing!

I had been doing everything I could to make the boys comfortable, we took cool baths to help with fevers, I used my fingers instead of harsh tissues when wiping noses (I used gallons of soap and hand sanitizer), I made sure they were both hydrated and J2 was allowed to eat whatever he wanted. The only thing that I couldn’t seem to help with was J3’s eyes, I wiped them with warm damp cloths, dripped breastmilk onto them and tried to keep them as clean as possible.

Alas, it was to no avail.

We woke up Wednesday morning and J3’s left eye was so swollen and inflamed that he could barely see out of it. If that wasn’t bad enough, it seemed that the medications Josh was on weren’t working as efficiently as they could. He woke up barely able to speak, and when he did it was followed by a coughing fit, we figured he probably needed time to actually rest. So, Josh stayed home and slept while I took the boys to the pediatrician.

Two hundred dollars later (we’re still paying the deductible) I find out that J2 is recovering well from his cold, we just have to be patient and wait for the cough to work itself out, but J3 has an eye and ear infection. He was prescribed a powerful antibiotic that tastes disgusting and would give him loose stools (bleurgh), so the doctor recommended that we give him half a sachet of a probiotic every day to keep things a bit firmer inside (double bleurgh). J3 does not like taking his medication.

I am very, very, pleased to say that he no longer looks like the worlds cutest pirate, and that he mostly retained his cheerful demeanor throughout the past week.

“Why was this week so bad?” You might be asking yourself. Remember how I said that Josh’s meds weren’t working as well as they could? Turns out they were doing the best they could, it’s just that this cold is a beast. J2 and J3 still have runny noses and coughs, which of course affected their sleeping.

Q: What’s worse than a husband and a couple of little boys with colds?
A: A husband and a couple of little boys with colds who can’t sleep because of the coughing and stuffy sinuses, and one who doesn’t just poop in his diaper, but explodes out of it.

Seriously, we moved J3 up two diaper sizes this week just to try to contain it, it was costing us a fortune in laundry detergent!

The worst part about this week has been the sleep deprivation. J3 has been sleeping in our room again so he didn’t disturb J2, which of course meant he disturbed us, and yet J2 turned up in our room every night. He would either crawl in between us and then push Josh out of bed, or climb directly on top of me. If anyone out there knows what that’s like, then you know how disruptive it is to one night’s sleep, now imagine that happening every night for over a week.

But, like I said here, there are a lot more things that I have to be thankful for, like my husband and wonderful kids. I just need to remember that the next time I complain about losing a few hours of sleep.

Until next time,
Laura x

Blessed (Originally titled: Nightmare Week)

We’ve had a super rough, tiring week. 

Typing that makes me feel like a bit of a fraud, we’re all okay, we have a roof over our heads, and food in the fridge. We have the love of our families and we have each other. We have a steady income and a great car. 
Hmm, who knew making a note of what you have, instead of focusing on what you don’t have, really helps to get your priorities straight!

Tomorrow I will share what has happened this past week, but right now I’m going to go to bed thinking of the future. 

Until next time,

Laura x

Someone get me a hazmat suit!

Josh was sick before we went to PAX, but he was on the mend and we hoped, foolishly, that he would continue to get better. A busy weekend, coupled with late, restless nights, didn’t give his body many chances to heal.

He eventually felt so bad that he left work early on Friday and went to see a doctor, thinking it was a mild chest infection, only to be diagnosed with acute sinusitis and bronchitis!

Josh: Acute sinusitis & bronchitis

J3 decided that he wanted to be just like Daddy and developed a mild fever on Thursday evening, which got up to 101.7 on Friday. His eyes were red, inflamed and ‘gunky’, and he had five poopy nappies! Not just a little poop either, these were all blowouts.

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J3: Fever, conjunctivitis & diarrhea

Today J2 joined the party, on the way home from Kroger he made a squelchy noise in his car seat, I looked in the rear view mirror and when I asked him if he was okay his eyes rolled back into his head and that’s when I noticed the vomit. He heaved again, his eyes snapped back, he said, “eww”, and then laughed.

I quickly pulled over, parked in a random car park and cleaned the boy up as best as I could. Fortunately I’d remembered to pick up the change bag so I had wipes, and diaper sacks and, most importantly, a change of clothes for him.

I called Josh on the way home to have him prepare the J’s bedroom so we could put J2 down for a nap as soon as we got in, Josh sounded awful and in the background I could hear J3 crying. It was at that point that I started to feel nauseous.

J2: Vomiting, fever & headache

Now, dear friends, don’t you start to worry about me, I’m not sick. Yet. Just feeling mumtired, so, once the Super Bowl’s over everyone is going to bed!

Me: Tired

Until next time,
Laura x

This week in the World of Slimming 2/2/17

As I said last week, I am starting again.
I asked the moderators to reset my profile, take away all of my awards and put me back to the beginning of the 12 week intro program.

And it worked!

We went to San Antonio, had a great time at PAX, and I was completely off plan. This gave me a massive gain on the scales, I actually ended the weekend at 218.2 pounds!

Tuesday rolled around and I jumped back in with two feet, I had fruit for breakfast, a lovely salad for lunch and made Taco Soup for dinner. Josh wasn’t too keen on the soup, he has an issue with texture and didn’t like the cooked tomato and green chili, next time I’ll blitz it so that it’s smooth. He did like the taste however, and I also forgot to add the frozen corn and cooked rice, so that will give it more body too and make it even more filling than it already is!

Weigh-in day came and I was hoping to be, at most, 215 lbs, just to be back at the beginning and to start again. I was so happy when the scales read 212.0! Not only did I lose my vacation pounds, I lost a little bit more too!

Here’s how I plan on keeping it going this week:

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I’ve added a little syn marker where I plan on using syns, and Sunday will be a flexible syn day due to the Super Bowl party we’re heading too. I think that if I can have a blowout weekend and still lose weight during the week, I think I’ll be okay with one synful meal!

Until next time,
Laura x

PAX South 2017 (tbc)

PAX is short for the Penny Arcade Expo, it is a convention that is solely about games, video games, card games, board games, role playing games etc., there are gaming tournaments, sneak peeks of upcoming releases, nerd core bands, and panels hosted by some of the internets gaming celebrities, whether they review games, stream their gaming sessions live, or make ‘Let’s Play’ videos for YouTube.

PAX = Games, y’all.

To read more about the history of PAX, click here

We’ve wanted to go to a PAX for years but we’ve never had the funds and opportunity coincide, so when tickets for PAX South 2017 went on sale last year I snapped up a couple, and then we promptly forgot about them! So, it was a lovely surprise to get an email at the beginning of January telling us that our badges were on the way!

Sorry folks J3 is crying for Mummy, so for now you should read up on PAX and the Penny Arcade team in general, and I’ll leave you with this super cute picture.

 

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J2 will LOVE looking back at baby pictures when he’s older!

Until next time,
Laura x

 

 

This week in the World of Slimming 1/26/17

So, yep, that’s that.

This week I completely fell off of the wagon. Lately I’ve been talking the talk but finding it increasingly difficult to walk the walk, and it finally caught up with me.

There is good news however, while weighing in online I realized what my problem is:

Since Christmas I’ve really struggled to get back into things and the weight has slowly crept back on. I’ve not been dealing with it, just letting it happen, which has made me start to feel really guilty, I’ve had some moments of self-loathing and doubts as to why Josh should care about me if I don’t care about myself. Yep, it got pretty dark at one point.

My solution is to wipe out my history. I’ve asked the admins to remove my awards, and clear out my progress, starting from scratch at today’s weigh in of 213.8 pounds. This way there’s no crushing guilt from knowing that I’ve wasted the hard work of last 6 months, or feeling like I’ve climbed a huge hill only to roll back down and have to start again even though I’m already exhausted.

That all being said, we are going on vacation this weekend. It’s time for PAX South in San Antonio! We are super excited and I plan on being off-plan until Tuesday, from then it will be Slimming World all the way. Josh has even agreed to do it with me, one hundred percent.

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So, we’re going to do a lot of walking and eating, be complete nerds and have a great time!

Follow us on twitter and Instagram for a rolling commentary of our weekend.

Until next time,
Laura x

Our Favorite Tabletop Games for Two Players (Part 1)

We love games.

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Most of our tabletop game collection.

So, I’ve just counted them all up, and I think we have 64 different table top games. They range from 1 player (we only have a couple) to 10 or more players! This post, however, will be focused on games that can be played with 2 people.

Oh, did I mention that Josh is helping me with this one? He is my opposition in these 2 player games, after all. The competitive ones that is.

Out of all of our games, at least half of them can be played with two or more players, and here are five of our favorites…

  • Ascension – Card – Deck building
    You use your deck to fight cultists and monsters, and to attract heroes to your cause, all with the aim of earning shiny crystals! The person who has the most crystals at the end of the game is the winner!
    We like this game because everyone starts off on an even footing, everyone has access to the same cards and it’s pretty easy to get the hang of.
  • Star Wars: X-Wing Miniatures Game – Collectible miniatures – Combat
    This base game comes with two tie-fighters and one x-wing miniature,  to build up your fleets will require some investment, but if you love Star Wars, miniatures and games, then it’s worth it. You choose which fleet you want to command, Republic or Empire, Bounty Hunter ships are also available separately, and then you fight it out!
    Josh likes this game because it’s the best depiction of a ‘dog-fight’ in a board game that he’s seen, and they did a great job at making it feel like an authentic Star Wars experience.
  • Sushi Go! – Card – Set collection
    Sushi Go! is so cute! Every card has an illustration of a sushi staple, from dumplings to nigiri, to chopsticks! Everyone gets dealt a hand, from which you choose one card to keep, then everyone passes their deck to the person on their left, and you choose another card from your new hand, you keep passing and choosing until there are no cards left. Using the cards you decide to keep you build sets, and your sets are scored at the end of each round. The winner is the person with the most points at the end of the game.
    We like this game because it’s portable, easy to learn, and can accommodate up to 5 people, perfect for when you’re waiting for your food at a restaurant!
  • Ticket to Ride – Board – Network building
    We have TtR: Europe, it has some different mechanics from the original TtR, but we think that makes it better. The aim of this game is to spread your train network over the map, whether it’s the US, Europe, Asia or any other version they’ve published! To do this you use different cards to allow you access to possible routes, you can focus on collecting resources for yourself, or collecting resources you know your opponent needs.
    We like this because we love the tactile nature of the individual train cars, the strategy in planning which routes to go for first, and the knowledge that you’ve just blocked your opponent from completing one of their routes!
  • PandemicBoard – Co-operative
    Yes, that’s right, while playing this game you work as a team.
    Four deadly diseases have started to spread over the world and it’s up to you, members of the World Health Organization (WHO), to stop it. You must treat the cities where infection has spread, cure the diseases completely then eradicate them! Well, to win all you need to do is cure them, but I like complete victories.
    This game is hard. It’s supposed to be hard. You will lose more often than you win. But that’s okay because you’re playing games with someone you like, maybe even love, and that’s the most important thing.
    We like Pandemic because of the feeling of having a team mate; it requires a lot of forward thinking and strategy; and when you do win you feel great!

That’s just 5 of our top favorite games for two people, stay tuned for Part 2.

Until next time,
Laura x

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